Today He Would be Thirty

Today my son Matthew would be thirty years old if he had not been killed in 2004 at the age of twenty-two. The poem below was written on what would have been his twenty-fifth birthday. It’s still significant today.



Today he would be twenty-five

if from that crash he did survive.

He would be here and still alive,

if he had not gone for that drive.


The graveyard holds no mystery,

for sadness follows misery.

His life is now a history

of memories ever haunting me.


I ‘oft can hear his clear demand,

his trumpet blasting in the band;

his guitar vibrant in his hand;

while laughing loudly in the stand.


I long to see him here today

and celebrate just one more way

to touch and hug, and hear him say,

“I understand” and “It’s okay.”


And yet I don’t quite understand

just why his short life had to end.

It is so hard to comprehend

that life on earth is just a lend.


It’s just so hard…

©.Phoebe Leggett


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About Phoebe Leggett

Phoebe Leggett is an author, poet, and free-lance writer whose articles, stories, and poetry have enhanced the lives of many. In 2007 she received two awards for her work at the Blue Ridge Mountain Christian Writer’s Conference in Ridgecrest, North Carolina. Her articles, stories, and poetry have been published in adult and children’s Christian literature as well as online. Her books are available on under her name.
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4 Responses to Today He Would be Thirty

  1. Ann Tatlock says:

    Phoebe, as you mark this milestone, I’m sending you many big hugs and warm thoughts. May the Lord wrap his arms around you and give you the peace and hope that only He can give. Love you.



  2. NikeChillemi says:

    What a lovely poem. I’m so sorry for your loss. ((((hugs))))


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